Dear Narcissist (Aka the father)
Dear Narcissist (Aka the father) I don’t know where this is going to go but I need to write. Part of me wishes you could see this and the part of me that knows you would never get it doesn’t. For you...
View ArticleCleaning-A Rock and a Hard Place
cleaning woesZoe G. I feel caught between a rock and a hard place today. It’s come time to clean again and I’m so triggered. I know I blogged about this recently but here it is again. For those who...
View ArticleNarcissistic Neglect…
Hubby and I were chatting this morning and I discovered something, I hadn’t really given a lot of thought before. It’s crossed my mind, but today it hit me. You know when you grow up in abuse, things...
View ArticleGaslighting…
LightZoe G. Gaslighting is a term that has come up in my world lately, I don’t really know why but I can guess it’s because I was meant to learn about it. If I hear a term more than once and don’t...
View ArticleGaslighting Story…
I’ve mentioned in other posts that the mother was ill with kidney failure. During that time, she needed to have surgery to put a port in her upper chest that would be hooked up to the dialysis...
View ArticleDear Sister…
This one for some reason is the hardest letter to write. Dear Sister, I wish you could see the abuse, I wish you weren’t blinded by the narcissistic cloud of evil that we were raised in. It breaks my...
View ArticleBody Dysmorphic Disorder
Mirror on the WallZoe G. Some will know that yesterday was a therapy day for me. This past week has been really good and I was feeling stronger, so I chose to work on my battle with body dysmorphic...
View ArticleAbandonment…
Yesterday,I blogged about the struggle to trust and to receive love, a couple of bloggers brought up another link connected and I think it’s worth a blog post of its own. I would mention the bloggers...
View ArticleTargeted Child…
I’m sure I’ve mentioned this before but maybe it’s worth talking about further. I was the targeted child, my sister was the favourite. I think as a kid, I often wondered if I was just imagining it....
View ArticleNarcissistic Father Lessons…
A NarcissistZoe G. I just had a thought. I can just see all your eyes rolling…lol Yesterday I mentioned that I discovered through therapy that I was carrying my Hubby’s pain. Once I had the “ah ha”...
View ArticleYet One…
Road to freedomZoe G. Fire breathing venom, spews out your blackened heart, searing, burning, scaring souls, with lies that you impart. Mental, emotional, verbal lashes brand our, fragile minds. You...
View ArticleThe Rape…
TRIGGER WARNING I said yesterday that I was going to blog about the rape. I sit at the computer shaking, and my palms sweating and my heart racing as I attempt to type this out. I’ve been able to tell...
View ArticleConditional Love…
He strives to give her, his beloved child a life a life better better then he lived. He wants, almost needs to protect her. Protect her from what? Harm? Unable to learn, for he can’t allow her to...
View ArticleNegative Messages Damaging…
I know I’ve blabbed a lot about BDD (body dysmorphic disorder) lately, but it seems to be what’s in the forefront of my mind, be it good or bad I’m not sure. I had an epiphany recently in this regard....
View ArticleThe difference between healthy and defensive boundaries…
Welcome to part three in the boundary series. If you haven’t seen parts one and two, the links are below. http://behindthemaskofabuse.com/2013/06/01/do-you-know-how-to-set-boundaries/...
View ArticleSystem Victimization
I’m so happy to welcome Twindaddy from http://stuphblog.wordpress.com/as a guest poster on my blog. This is a powerful and chilling message. Victims of abuse aren’t just victimized by their attackers,...
View ArticleStrings attached…
Beauty in the darkness Zoe G. Those who’ve followed me for some time will know that I have an ongoing battle with being able to say “no” when I need too. I had an epiphany today in this regard. I know...
View ArticleStupid,ambushing, dumb ass triggers!
Beginning of rant: I hate the stupid, dumb ass, ambushing, kick butt triggers that hit from out of nowhere, making me believe that I’m in the past, when I’m really not in the past, I’m in the present....
View ArticleShame…
SkylightZoe G. The definition of shame is: A painful feeling of humiliation or distress, caused by the awareness of wrong or foolish behaviour. Disgrace and dishonour are the noun forms of the word....
View Article4URKids:Predator Tricks
Educating Children I’ve recently met a wonderful lady through the blogging world, who is making it her mission to raise awareness of the world-wide epidemic of child abuse. I’m so honoured to have her...
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